Need some Advice...

[Zaul]

I dont really know where else to ask, The OTCA Community has been so kind to me since day one and the people I've met at the Meetings will be friends for life.

Firstly let me say I didn't sell my Universe collection off, I would be a fool to, I've taken em off ebay and Ive stored them away and plan to keep collecting when/if I come back.

Here's my situation.

I've known a Girl online for 8 years, during that time we kind of fell in love, as much as an internet couple could, but I kind of broke it up when It became apparent we probably wouldn't see each other due to school/money restrictions.

She ended up dating another guy, and I went my separate way, but after getting the gut feeling something wasn't right I found out he wasn't treating her very well and was a heavy drinker.

Being the good nature soul I am I helped her get through it and move on, however she was heart broken and I Guess the term was burned for quiet a while.

Anyways we got talking again, and I admitted to her I still liked her, she said she liked me too but would not admit anything further until we had a chance to meet and we actually got to know each other face to face.

So I decided Screw it, Im gonna go visit her.

I dropped all my plans, got the quickest job I could find and started saving hard.

Things were going ok in the 3 months while I was saving, but something bothered me.
She wouldn't tell her Parents I was coming, despite being 22 and living on her own she was worried they might think less of her and think that I'm some internet stalker or something stupid like that.

So I had to keep the trip a secret, and on facebook that's rather difficult when everyones linked.

Anyways about a week ago I was talking to one of her friends, whom I Thought was her best friend, and some info kind of got leaked.

Next thing I know I get a horrible email from my friend in Canada saying she isnt happy and basically this friend of hers had been blasting her ear out with ' OMG DONT HE'S AN INTERNET RAPIST, IM TRYING TO SAVE YOUR LIFE HERE , HE KEEPS ASKING HOW YOU ARE '.

What Hurts me here is I've done all the hard work for this visit, I've saved up nearly $5000 all for a chance on what I Thought was going to be love, we have alot of chemistry and we get along well but these things really bother me.

What realllllllllllly pisses me off is the fact I'm considered a stalker in her friends eyes because I ask how she is sometimes, which just makes me rage due to the fact that when you like someone , and I assume they like you back you want to hear about them and spend time together.

So here I am 2 weeks out of the trip, basically with a seal over my mouth about posting anything on facebook at all now.. she told her friend she blocked me and thats that, but I cant help but wonder if Im getting the raw end of the deal here.

I'm not a demanding guy, and I'm very patient, but due to the fact she wont tell her parents im coming Basically the whole thing has to be keept a secret, lest this big mouth friend of hers spills the beans to her parents, gets them worried and she's forced to explain the situation.

Does anyone else think Im being played a bit here?

This post might sound negative about the poor girl but she's been a good friend of mine for so long, I understand she's in a difficult position but in times like this I feel she needs to grow a spine.

I hate being considered a secret, not being able to post on facebook, not being able to let anyone know im going blah blah blah. I mean christ im 22, she's 22, we are adults now, and Im past the stage in my life where I want to play games with peoples emotions.

What makes this so hard is she's the only girl Ive ever known that really likes me, and she's the only one Ive ever had strong feelings for, even though it is so long distance..

This isn't the first problem we've had but it is the most recent, I was really looking forward to this trip to Canada too, I dont really know what to do anymore, I paid a fortune for a work visa, but I just feel like she doesn't care or something.