Well, I have started playing guitar to take my mind off things.
I have figured out that alcohol doesn't help. I woke up in glen waverly yesterday morning sleeping on my jumper...
I'm just glad that I have people on here who have been through the same thing. It sucks that this is my first ever break up, my first love. I feel like you guys can help me through it all. I just wish I could turn time forwards, even just a year and see how I am then. Sometimes I hate being 19... I know that I have to put in the work in order to achieve my final goal and I'm fine with that. But right now, I feel as though everything I have ever done has been for nothing.

Edward Norton Lorenz is my inspiration to continue studying, I want to be like him; forever selfless and family orientated. I have a strange love for mathematics and want to contribute something towards the field. However, at this point in time... I don't even want to get out of bed.